I know I am feeling good and positive when I look at the racing schedule and start adding races to my calendar.
But it’s a new normal, courtesy of Stage 1 arthritis (both knees) and a repaired meniscus (right knee, 24 physical therapy sessions). The over-the-counter arthritis meds are helping considerably, and so is an additional running session each week. I lost a lot of my heat acclimation while I was not running, so I am forcing myself out there during the hot times when possible.
I have to rethink competition. Long, hard uphills and downhills are a thing of the past (that’s how I tore the meniscus). Unforgiving surfaces are out, too (no beach running, no running on brick or concrete paths, if possible). Trails are fine, but I would make it a point to study the terrain first, if possible. As for distance: marathon and half-marathon mileage is a pipe dream. I think 10K could still be doable, but more likely my races will be the five to eight-kilometer variety. I am up to four-mile runs now.
Four months ago, I could not visualize being where I am now. I did know that going into physical therapy, failure was not on the table and could not be even a remote consideration. I had to come back better. I was fortunate to get a therapist who believed in me. I heard a lot of negativity during the process from people who had surgery or really severe injuries and felt they would not or could not ever get better. I got a lot of negative feedback from people who told me I would never get much better.
You’ve gotta try to love your haters.
That’s how I looked at those people. People who are jealous or envious of any success you have will be more than happy to beat you down to their level so they feel better about their miserable lives. They will use Facebook, Instagram, Reddit, or message apps (either with or without you included) to spread the mean word that you’re not the same person you used to be.
But that’s the point.
Even after injury, a comeback is possible. It’s not always possible to be the same as you were, but you can be better, even if the racing normal you had before isn’t there anymore.
I wish the injury had not happened, but without it, I would have ignored the arthritis situation and that would have gotten worse. I can’t exactly say I am grateful for a body part that decided to give up on a bridge, but I learned that physical therapy was the hardest 24 of anything I’ve ever done. And that a new normal is something I can handle.